Tired,shagged........feel like giving up, is it worth being nice to everyone, how do u define nice?
Saturday, July 31, 2004
Alrite another week has whizzed by and things are gonna get super hectic..the mood in class is generally ok with the ocassional outbursts of anger by pple who cant control anger. In my opinion controlling anger is THE HARDEST THING IN THIS WORLD. ITs temping to release all that frustration by lashing out at someone, u feel better but at what cost. NO i am not talking about anyone in particular, i do not want any more misunderstandings other than the one that occured like 4 months ago..and still isnt resolved yet...sigh. I keep thinking to myself that being angry only breeds hatred.HATRED IS THE ROOT OF EVIl, u keep on thinking on destructive thoughts, u cant concentrate on things that u want to do. SOrry if i sound so cynical, but with all the things happening around me, i find it increasingly hard to suppress my anger....sometimes it just DYING TO BURST OUT, but i do not want that happen..it will not be pretty
Alrite enough about all the unhappy stuff, last sat watched i robot with my good pal, a person who i can freely share my thoughts with. The movie itself was pretty cool, effects were nice.... i like the car..so cool. Makes you think about the future where robots can control the world. Sunday its off to do project work once again..bleahz project work is really a pain in the butt.
From mon to tuesday,every nite was burnt doing project work, typing out the minutes, getting the gannt chart done. IN the process my hw backlog piled up, i felt like crap in school, always so tired. It was a hectic rush for everyone to get the file ready for submission, and i mean really rush, lol doing last minute stuff sure aint nice. When the file was finally submitted i was reliefed.
Wednesday, had learning journey after school went to junction 8 where the class split off to different places to eat. I was at pasta mania with the dc, justina, junjie and a friend of brendan, a female cadet inspector. Didnt had enough cash so i headed over to yoshinoya for a students meal,yup cheap and appetising. For the learning journey, was at CPF building where we had talks and watched a video clip, pretty boring in my opinion.
Thursday was the only day i got home early, wanted to do some work but ended up slacking around. Was snoozing on and off, due to a lack of sleep accumulated over the days.
Yesterday was a better day.After school i went to town with some of my cca mates ivan and andy, to have fun, playing lan games that is. ITs been a long time since i went to a lan shop to play, had macs befored that. Boy was it fun, those few hours spent playing helped me to destress and forget my troubles for a while. I didnt noe cs(counter-strike) could still be so fun after all these years. After that went back to watch some gundam seed again, yes i cant get enough of it, the story is so fantastic. Alrite till next time peeps
12:49:00 PM
on the wings of angel flying....
Sunday, July 25, 2004
Alrite the week has flown by with happy dayz and lousy dayz as usual. man i realli need to focus on my studies...struggling to cope with tutorials especially history... have to copy like mad to save my ass.., tests are looming in like a week time. My mood is struggling, its hard for me to reamain optimistic in face of all the problems, but i will try to keep myself cool and happy.
Last sat had fun in the nite with bbq at pasir ris park with jansen and his pals. that place was infested with mosquitos and i was wearing shorts, the moral wear long pants esp when it rained in the afternoon.. had loads of fun unwining and eating the food. Saw a lot of new ppl from jansen's church, managed to get the aj badge from him in exchange for my cj pin. THanks a lot dude. Played games like erm polar bear..erm some detective game, anyway left the place at like erm 11 with jed and jun liang, jansen's pals ...but we reached the mrt station too late, last train left at like 1125..what the hell.. stranded... most of the buses had also left... luckily we managed to squeeze into jansen's car and his parents kindlly sent us to amk, from there took nite rider to town before a cab home, reached home at 0115..freaking late
sunday nothing much xcept pw.. went to town to meet group memebers, lester was also there. Had to finish up all the surveys, first time really asking pple to do surveys, learned a few tricks from lester on asking pple to do such stuff. later slacked around at macs while waiting for joanne and lingzhi who were filming pple for our video clip
Monday, tuesday zipped by so quickly, got napha pre testing, man i got to improve my 2.4 km time, mind over matter... my standing broad jump has to improve too i think the best i can get is a pass.. got to work harder, get in shape soon.
Wednesday to friday was practically lawn bowls training at scc near city hall. On wed had lunch at funnan and after training had fast food again at raffles city.Argh got ripped off, jackson bought a whooper meal with 4 bucks and i bought a kids meal with 550...blargh, anyway course quite enriching, got some pointers
12:02:00 AM
hmm
Sunday, July 18, 2004
i just remembered something.i got a letter that i was not looking foward to receive so early.. its a letter from MINDEF regarding registration for NS... I'm only in j1 and they send this thing so early.. oh well i will remember to register by the end of the month and enjoy the remaining 1.5 years of youth :) Being a youth rox!
9:12:00 PM
Give me some time.....
ok another monster update starting from erm starting from 10 july..lets see what did i do..oh had chinese ao listening comprehension in the morning..hm pretty ok in my opinon. After that went home to slack and finish up watching gundam seed..this series really rox. In the afternoon went for cell group meeting... again felt what was said by the pastor is so true..sometimes when u have difficulties in life and everything seems agains u... GOD IS ALWAYS THERE FOR U :) Hm the pastor gave some interesting facts, about the unchurched.. aneways after the cg, i rushed of to town to meet my friend, he was late..so i did my chinese compo at the mrt station
-_-" then we had dinner at long johns silver.headed to cineleisure for bowling but had to be placed on waiting list too mani pple... so we slacked around first looking for sports items he wanted to buy. FInally at 2200 managed to get a lane...however had to pay 22 dollars....for unlimited no of games for one hour. Yeah cosmic bowling....glowing under the light, so we played as fast as we could..yup managed to reach 100 pins at last...it was madness throwing a ball every 30 seconds or less... by the time we finished we had finished 4 and a half games in one hour... wahh aching hands after that...yup yup..reached home about 2345
Alrite sunday lets c woke and wasnt feeling too well..so couldnt go for service.. in the afternoon went to have lunch with my relatives who flew in from hk at the mandarin hotel at the top floor, wooh the view was stunning could see half of singapore.. after that i went to kallang for the final match of lawnbowling..well we did a little better..finally reached double digits lolx..well i now know whats my weakness...need to improve on it
Monday and tuesday...days of reckoning got back my june mid year exams results..lets see BDF in a nutshell. B for econs, D for history, F for maths...yup my maths is still my weakest subject...its been like that since sec 3..haiz still have the same problem . i dun have gp cos i was absent on that day due to illness...drats that means i got only 1AO subject, chinese did supringsingly ok with a grade 4 considering that my composition was rather rushed.. Hm i think lester or maple did rather well for their myes congrats to them
Wednesday nothing much...cant really remember except that pw really is getting on my nerves, in the afternoon had cca.. Thursday i came home and fell asleep for like almost 3 hours..dunno why the past week every time i come home sure fall asleep...its like my energy is zapped, maybe thats cos i burn my weekends..
11:01:00 AM
One week
Sunday, July 11, 2004
ok havent blogged for a very long time like almost a week, find it very hard to type when i want to. Ok last sunday had lawn bowls competition in the morning, one word describes it "disastrous", totally off form and couldnt concentrate. Boy was i glad when it was finally over, aniwaes after that went to meet my folks for lunch. Went home and took a nap, super tired. Then i managed to study a bit for chinese. IN the evening went to meet my friend for dinner, ate at bk cineleisure.After that we went bowling, i finally realised that u are not supposed to throw the ball but instead roll it, thats why i bowled so lousyily in the past. Anyway had loads of fun, played 3 games and at the same time burned a hole in my pocket, finally went home around 2300.
Monday studied a bit in the morning for chinese, its like its the subject that i am least prepared for. After that in the afternoon went to meet jansen and his pals.In the process, i asked them to do so surveys for my pw. watched spiderman 2 which was super cool and fascinating. Its better than the first one in my opinion, the hero really has grown and matured. AH that ends officially the holidays, as on tuesday its back to school
Tuesday basically had chinese in the morning, my water bottle was confiscated by the teacher, was SUPER ANGRY as i was very thristy, had to bear with it for like 3 hours, Joel my classmate was unfortunate..his english chinese dictionary was confiscated.. hopefully he managed to use it before that happened. IN the afternoon had NE quiz, quite hilarious some of the questions.After that had oral exams for chinese AO, was alrite in my opinion, finally went home to catch some sleep.
From wed to thurs i was practically slacking at home after school not even touching my homework. I still feel as if it was the holidays.. argh cant believe its term already..everyday go home play comp..still trying to dload gundam seed..
Friday finally i managed to grab gundam seed after a tip off from one of my friends. THere was a council investiture and a very entertaining youth day concert..BLar after school went to town....but with no one!!!!!!! why cant i fit into a group!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I REALLY MISS THE FIRST 3 MONTHS.. oh well, the good thing was i had some quiet time to myself. Tried eating some freezed dried food from 7 eleven, after that met bingshan, one of the lawnbowlers and went to kallang for training, along the way we were crapping about the upcoming exam results..
10:16:00 AM
Sat
Monday, July 05, 2004
hm going to talk about this long weekend thanks to youth day which happens like once a year. on SAt went to see the eye doc for the last time, waited for like close to 90 mins....which seemed like eternity, and went i finally saw the doc, lasted for like 3 min...ARgh make me wait for so long, was in the process of getting stoned.. After that went to macs at tanglin mall for a quick lunch.. saw a lot of crescent girls around . Then i went to holland village to meet jx and the other ppl for cell group meeting.Jx was telling me more about the holy spirit and speaking in tongues, i find it rather interesting.. hope to experience it sometime I could see that she is influenced by the holy spirit and this helps her through her problems in life.What the pastor said felt so real, it takes commitment to make things happen.. u are in a difficult situation cos god has plans for you, wants u to change your character or something. Its probably things u havent thought of.. after all HE is ALMIGHY. After the meeting ended, i was planning to go home, but decided to follow jx with her friend jieyun to town. Hm starting from the heeren, we walked all the way to suntec city, my first time doing so on foot, along the way , we stopped by the singapore art musuem(old SJI :) and a shop selling some church stuff. Along the way, it was just chit chat and some sightseeing(churches)Dinner was at food court at suntec, at first we couldnt find it and had to ask for directions, it was shifted to another location.Hm saw chong ying and his friends, we gave our seats to them. Jing xuan then found her friend dywanne and from this point onwards, non stop bickering occurred, jieyun told me that once the two of them get together bound to quarrel. ITs very amusing actually...like watching free show, we went to macs at citilink mall where dywanne had his dinner and had to coax jx to eat some food. And the bickering continued...entertainment. After that, we went to esplanade rooftop, admiring the view.. listening to a free concert. There was some talk of some ppl getting married and who becomes the flowergirl/boy..ahem the two ppl bickering -_-"". Left the esplanade around 2200 and headed back home. Phew then its off to bed. Just something that came to my mind,treasure the ppl around you.. whether or not they like u does not matter..human life is so limited, must try to enjoy every moment.
10:05:00 PM
music continued
Friday, July 02, 2004
alrite the first time i heard this song back in may, i fell in love with it, its a catchy and ultra cool dance hit. The lyrics are perfect for cheering up those with troubles in relationships, although i am single, it could come in handy in the future...XD
Mircacle by Cascada
Boy meets girl
You were my dream, my world
But I was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it’s true
I’m still in love with you
Refrain:
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you’ll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you’ll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me
Day and night
I’m always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know its true
I’m still in love with you
I need a miracle…
12:14:00 PM
music
hm theses are the few songs that i find so meaningful, they're really nice in my opinion. GO and check them out, i often think of these songs when i am lonely/ depressed, it helps abit to get rid of those down feelings
Everytime by britney spears
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
Ohhhh
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby
12:08:00 PM
